JOURNAL OF A MISSING PADAWAN
To: Colonel W. Yularen, Imperial Security Bureau
From: Office of Imperial Intelligence Director
Date: 17:8:14 GrS (1 AE)
Per request, the following records were retrieved from a datapad found during excavation efforts at the Jedi Temple following the conclusion of Operation: Knightfall. Said records are believed to originate from a journal authored by former Jedi Commander Ahsoka Tano (status unknown, priority level 3). Most of the entries on the datapad were either corrupted or erased; these were all that were retrievable.
It is highly suggested that these records be forwarded to the Inquisitorius for use in their efforts to track down and eliminate all remaining Jedi. Failure to do so will incur the disappointment of His Imperial Majesty.
It should be noted that not all entries are dated. Intelligence has done its best to include speculative dates based on context clues, but such dates are, again, speculative and designated appropriately.
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[Entries 1-137 were irretrievable]
Entry 138 (13:5:16)
I can’t believe it! I’m a Padawan! I never thought this day would come.
I haven’t met my Master yet, but I hear he’s a real piece of work. A lone wolf kind of guy. Very aloof. But I’m sure I’ll get him to come out of his shell. A part of me wishes that I’d been picked by Master Plo, but… well, Jedi aren’t supposed to be picky. Besides, I think he’s already got a Padawan….
Anyway, I’m supposed to pack up my things and move into my new Padawan quarters. Wow, I can’t believe I’m even saying those words. It feels so surreal.
I can’t help but feel uneasy, though. I overheard on the HoloNet that there was an assassination attempt on the Senator from Naboo. Things have been getting pretty scary in the galaxy as of late. I hope that everything sorts it out soon; I would hate for my first day as a Padawan to start with somebody important getting killed….
Entry 139 (13:5:17)
Boy, they were not joking. Master Lonfil is something else.
First off, he’s not just a “lone wolf”; he’s a literal wolf. Wolfman, rather; a Shistavanen I think they’re called. But he’s also not a people person. I’m getting the impression that he only took me on as a Padawan out of obligation rather than because he wanted to.
Secondly, he’s already got me doing exercises that my body just can’t handle. I don’t know what he thinks I am, a Boltrunian or something?
I wish I could say there was more that happened today, but my entire time was spent doing arduous exercises. Hopefully there is more to being a Padawan than just this, because so far, I am not enjoying it.
But I suppose “enjoying it” was never the point….
Entry 140 (13:5:20)
Well, this is just great. My first mission as a Padawan and I blew it.
We were sent to the lower levels of Coruscant to track down a Senate Guard that was making some rather illicit dealings with spice traders. We found him and cornered him but I… kind of got ahead of myself.
I don’t want to get into the details, but, needless to say, the Senate Guard is now in the medbay with a blaster-burned hand and I’ve been confined to the Archives as punishment, to teach me a lesson about patience. I’m also apparently not supposed to hold my lightsaber in a reverse-grip stance. Master Lonfil says that it’s “too dangerous” and can get others, or myself, hurt. Well, someone should tell Master Drallig that because I’ve seen him teaching that form to students.
Now I’m really wishing Master Plo had taken me as his Padawan. I don’t think he’d be as much of a grouch as Master Lonfil is.
Entry 141 (13:5:21)
I should have been there. I could have saved him. Why didn’t he take me with him?
Master Lonfil is dead. A lot of Jedi are. The Republic is at war now, and we are supposed to lead some new “Grand Army.”
I’ve always been taught that Jedi were peacekeepers, not soldiers. Sure, there are some exceptions to that unwritten rule, especially if you go far back enough in the history books. But that’s in the past, and we’re not supposed to dwell on the past.
Of course, this is now. I wonder what future generations of Jedi will think of this looking back… if we’re not still serving as soldiers.
I don’t know what’s going to happen to me. The Council of Reassignment hasn’t summoned me yet; everyone’s been too busy to remember me. Of course, I’m not the only Padawan who’s been left without a master. Scout lost her master at Geonosis as well. So did Iskat, and Bairdon.
I’m not alone but I feel alone. I’ve never felt so lost in my life.
I hate ending these entries on such dour notes. Hopefully my next one will be a bit more optimistic.
Entry 142 (13:5:23)
It’s been two days. Still no word from the Council.
Scout hasn’t heard from them either and is afraid she’s going to get reassigned to the AgriCorps. Is that what’s going to happen to me? I don’t want to sound awful, but my connection to the Force isn’t as… unpredictable as Scout’s. Surely there’s some Master out there who would want to take me as a Padawan.
Entry 143 [entry undated; speculated to be approximately a week after the First Battle of Geonosis]
Well, it only took little over a week. Alright, good news and bad news time.
Good news: I’ve been reassigned! And it’s to Master Plo!
Bad news: It’s only temporary. Only reason I’m being assigned to him is because he’s been given a mission that shouldn’t be too combat-heavy, so he has time to give me some instructional guidance, at least until I’m given a more permanent reassignment.
I know I should be grateful—Scout and Iskat still haven’t been reassigned—but I still can’t help but feel that I’m being held back or passed over.
Who knows, maybe Master Plo will be impressed enough with me that he’ll take me on as his full-time Padawan.
A girl can dream, I suppose.
[Entries 144-250 irretrievable]
Entry 251 [entry undated; established to be written prior to the Battle of Christophsis. Will need to cross-reference with Database Division for exact date]
I can’t believe this is happening. Scout is going to be sooo jealous.
So, I’ve been reassigned again. What a surprise. I wonder if this is normal for Padawans? Could it be a bad thing that I’ve been jumping around so much?
Whatever, doesn’t matter now, because I’ve just been reassigned to the Chosen One himself: Anakin Skywalker!
Yes, you read that right! I didn’t even know he had been knighted at this point. It makes sense, especially after all the press he got for the Battle of Virujansi. I’ve heard some whispers at the Temple that it isn’t, like, “official-official” and that it’s only a formality because we’ve lost so many Knights to this war and the Chancellor says that we need more generals… but I’m getting sidetracked again.
I’m supposed to meet with him on Christophsis, where the Republic’s been countering the Separatist offensive in the Savareen sector. I’ll also be given a command position in the 501st Legion as Jedi Commander; hopefully this means that if Skyguy gets fed up with me, I’ll just be reassigned to another General in the division.
But I hope it doesn’t come to that. I really do.
[Entries 252-500 are either lost or irretrievable. The following entries are either corrupted, unmarked, or undated. Their inclusion here are for the sake of completion and unlikely to be useful in tracking down this Jedi]
Unmarked entry #1
Just got back from a mission on JanFathal. Met a Jedi named Callista. She’s… interesting, for lack of a better term. Kind of unorthodox. I mean, so is Master Skywalker, but she’s a bit… different. I’ll just leave it at that.
Unmarked entry #2
I’m drifting again. Technically I’m still assigned to Master Skywalker but he’s been on a lot of solo missions without me. Almost like he doesn’t want me around. Master Kenobi is a lot more friendly; almost wish he’d become my teacher instead. But I don’t want to say anything because my status is already unpredictable as it is. I don’t want to make things worse.
Unmarked entry #3
Heading out to the Chrelythiumn system to answer a distress call. I’m surprised Master Skywalker is bringing me along for this one, since it’s so far out in Wild Space and we’re going to be stuck together in a cramped ship for a while. Heh, maybe the Council got on him for not being a proper teacher.
Unmarked entry #4
There’s always a bit of truth in legends there’s always a bit of truth in legends there’s always a bit of truth in legends there’s always a bit of truth in legends there’s always a bit of truth in legends
Unmarked entry #5
She lives in me and I live in her. Niphal will always be with me. Morai will guide me to her.
Unmarked entry #6
They’ve been talking about me. They think I’m not fit for training anymore. Say I’m too far gone.
But am I? If anything, I am more certain about myself than I have ever been in my entire life. I have seen the true purity of the Force. I am closer to the light than I’ve ever been; than any Jedi has ever been.
Perhaps they’re right. Perhaps the path of the Jedi isn’t the one for me. Perhaps it never has been.
Perhaps my destiny lies elsewhere.
Unmarked entry #7
The Council has summoned me. They are going to cast me out of the Jedi Order.
I’m not going to give them that satisfaction.
I decide what path I will walk, not them.
Scout, if you find this journal (because I know you like to go through my stuff), know that the Jedi path is not the only one. You don’t need to force yourself to fit in. You can choose your own destiny. They can’t stop you. No one can.
Until our paths cross again—
May the Force be with you.
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To: Office of Imperial Intelligence Director
From: Office of Imperial Security Bureau Director
Date: 17:8:16 GrS (1 AE)
Per further consideration, as well as persuasive input from Lord Vader, it has been decided that these records and all copies are to be destroyed, as well as any possible traces of the subject’s existence. All Jedi who are marked Priority Level 3 by the Inquisitorius will be dealt with as time allows but are not a pressing concern as of present time.
Colonel Yularen extends his appreciation for the prompt response to his request.
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