1: REMEMBRANCE DAY
New Alderaan, 8005 C.R.C.
“Twenty-eight years ago today, we lost the soul of the Republic.”
Standing in the presence of over a hundred thousand people, it took everything within Leia Organa’s power to not break down on stage. As Chief of State of the New Republic and leader of the free galaxy, the burden was on her to stand strong and resolute. But Hari Seldona, famed poet that she was, had a melodious voice that could melt even the iciest of hearts, and had such a way with words, stringing them together in ways that made Leia’s head spun. It was no wonder that Seldona had been chosen to deliver tonight’s opening words.
“Twenty-eight years ago today, we lost so many of our loved ones.”
Casting her stinging eyes out into the crowd, Leia spotted the faces of her husband and three children among them, staring back at her with sad smiles. There was more than one face that were missing in this picture, but she did not dare dwell on this lest it cause her tear ducts to open. Her gaze then moved past her family to other survivors of Alderaan that she recognized. Foremost of all, there was Winter and her husband Tycho Celchu, standing with their daughter. Young Kaydel looked so much like her mother, who already had an uncanny resemblance to Leia, making the Princess of Alderaan wonder if she and Han had perhaps conceived a fifth child and forgotten it.
Standing not far from them was Kell Tainer, member of Wraith Squadron, standing side by side with his wife Tyria Sarkin and their two children. Other faces that Leia recognized included her close friend Evaan Verlaine; the retired Carlist Rieekan; Senator Cal Omas; Jedi Master Xanus Baran; the young Jedi Knight Raynar Thul, too young to have been born on Alderaan but descended from one of its noble houses regardless; and an assortment of non-Alderaanians who had come to tonight’s service to pay their respects, including friends that were as close as family such as Chewbacca and Lando Calrissian.
It was so rare for her to see so many of her loved ones gathered in one place. It nothing else, it made the pain of losing her first family easier to bear.
“Alderaan’s history stretches as far back as that of the Old Republic’s,” Hari Seldona continued on. “For over a thousand generations, from the day King Darrus Alde united them, the people of Alderaan strove to make their planet the most peaceful world in the galaxy. And they succeeded. No matter how many conflicts the Republic went through—from the Mandalorian Wars to the Great Galactic War, from the Sith Wars to the Clone Wars—Alderaan preserved through it all, with all of its beauty intact.”
Leia closed her eyes, bracing herself for what she knew was coming next. She tried not to block the words out, as much as she did not want to relive through that fateful moment again.
She sensed a wave of concern come from Seldona and she imagined the poet glancing briefly at her before clearing her throat. “That all changed when the Empire decided to exert its terrible power by erasing it all from existence.”
“Proceed with the operation. You may fire when ready.”
“What?!”
“You’re far too trusting. Dantooine is too remote for a proper demonstration. But don’t worry; we will deal with your rebel friends soon enough.”
A gloved hand held her back as she tried to move forward. Her heart pounded against her chest as Imperial technicians pressed buttons and flipped switches. Her watery eyes could only watch helplessly as a green beam of energy lanced across the viewscreen and headed straight for the lush blue world she had known to be her home for her entire life….
“But they failed.” Seldona’s strong voice liberated Leia from the painful memory. “The Empire may have destroyed Alderaan, but they failed to erase our people; our culture; our history; everything that we have stood for. Alderaan lives on through us; through me, through you, through the Princess. So long as we live, Alderaan will never truly be gone. So long as we live, Alderaan will live forever.”
Cheers and applause broke out among the crowd. Leia could not help but smile as Chewbacca’s hearty roars overtook some of the cheers. A smiling Seldona turned around to face her, stepping aside as she gestured for her to take the stage. Leia wasn’t sure how anything she said could top the words of a poet, but she knew she had to say something; not only as Chief of State but as the last Princess of Alderaan.
Tonight was going to be a long one; she had prepared for as much. But perhaps this one wouldn’t be as bad as the last twenty-seven had been.
* * *
“I must say, Janray, you have really outdone yourself.”
“My thanks, Your Highness.” Janray Tessime’s tired old eyes appeased her own work as she stood beside Leia. The paintings of several influential Queens and Kings of Alderaan lined the walls of the New Alderaan Hall of Memories, each masterpiece hanging over a door that led into a room which showcased exhibits tied to each monarch’s reign. The hall stretched on for a good mile or so, covering the history of the Alderaanian monarchy from King Darrus Alde to Queen Breha Organa. Several millennia’s worth of history had been preserved within these walls, and yet it was still merely a fraction of what had been lost with Alderaan’s destruction.
“I couldn’t have done it by myself, of course,” Janray went on, snapping Leia back to reality. “My students did a phenomenal job in bringing this all together.”
“That they did,” Leia agreed, her gaze being drawn once more to the portrait of Queen Breha hanging on the wall closest to her. The likeness was so lifelike, it was as if her mother had been brought back from the dead.
Her mother. Yes, that was who she still was in Leia’s eyes, even after all this time. While she had always known that Breha had not been her biological mother, as she and Bail had never hid the fact that she was adopted from her, she had only vague memories of her birth mother; memories which paled in comparison to those that Breha had created with her. In the years that had passed since she had learned of her true parentage and relation to the Naboo house of Naberrie, Leia had never once thought of herself as a daughter of Naboo. She had a close relationship with her cousins Pooja and Ryoo, but that was the extent of it. In her mind, she would always be a daughter of Alderaan, now and forever more.
If anything, it kept her from thinking about her paternal bloodline….
“Ah, what do you think of my representation of Queen Mazicia?”
Breaking out of her reverie again, Leia looked over to where Janray was pointing, to the portrait adjacent to Queen Breha’s. The depicted woman, elegant and beautiful, was not as familiar to her, outside of some family holos and history lectures.
“Hers was much more of a challenge, as she was before my time,” Janray said. “Yours as well, for that matter. I believe she would have been your grandmother, if I am not mistaken.”
“She was,” Leia confirmed. “She passed away long before I was born. My father believed it was the loss of her brother that was the cause.”
Janray nodded solemnly. “Yes, a broken heart can be a cause of death. Rare, but deadly nonetheless.”
Leia’s mouth twitched into a frown as another memory bubbled to the surface of her mind, one she had spent many years trying to repress.
“She’s dying?”
“We don’t know why. She has lost the will to live.”
“Shut it off, Artoo.”
“No.” Luke crouched down as he watched the miniature scene being projected from the astromech’s holoprojector. “I need to see this. We need to see this, Leia.”
“Well, I don’t,” Leia protested. “I don’t need to see… this.”
“She’s our mother, Leia.”
Leia held back tears as she stared at the woman in white laying on the medical slab, watched over by her father—the father she knew—and Ben Kenobi and a small green being whom she did not recognize.
She shut her eyes to put the image out of her mind. “This,” she said softly, “is not how I want to remember her.”
“Your Highness? Are you all right?”
Leia moved with a start as she looked back to Janray. The other woman looked back at her with a concerned look in her eyes.
“I’m fine,” Leia said in a tone she hoped was convincing. “It’s just… it’s been a long night and… this day is always hard for me.”
“I understand,” Janray said softly. “It’s hard for me as well, as it is for all of us, I’m sure. If you need some time to yourself….”
“Thank you, Janray. I think I should seek out my family and find some solace with them. Thank you again for all your work.”
“Think nothing of it, Your Highness.” Janray took Leia’s hands into her own and clasped them over each other. “I should be thanking you for everything you’ve done for us. For the galaxy.”
“There is no need,” Leia said, smiling sadly. “I don’t want to imagine a galaxy where I did anything less.”
* * *
Night had long since fallen on New Alderaan, but Leia was nowhere close to falling asleep. Dressed in her nightwear, she stood at a large window that overlooked the city of New Aldera, which had gone dark out of respect for the billions of lives lost twenty-eight years ago.
Twenty-eight years. She still could not wrap her mind around that number. Twenty-eight years since the destruction of Alderaan. Twenty-eight years since she had met her brother, met her future husband. Twenty-four since the death of the Emperor and her biological father.
Twenty years since she had lost her first child. Nineteen since she had her twins. Eighteen since she had her youngest. The three of them were now all grown up and on the path of becoming Jedi Knights. As for her oldest….
She refused to believe he was gone. She could still sense him; he was out there, somewhere in the galaxy, but still so far out of her reach. Was it simply denial? A trace of him in the Force? Or was he still alive? But if he was, then whose body had it been they had found? Some other poor soul’s child? And who would have been so sick and twisted enough to steal her child and kill another to make her believe he was dead?
Isolated in the dark, no longer beholden to maintain an image, she allowed the tears to roll freely down her cheeks. She didn’t notice Han step into the room behind her until he wrapped his arms around her.
“Can’t sleep?”
“No,” she whispered.
“Yeah. Me neither.” Silence for a moment. “Are you thinking about him?”
She did not ask him to clarify who he meant. The answer would have been the same either way.
“Yes.”
“Yeah. Me too.”
Unable to contain herself, she turned around and fell into his arms, sobbing into his shoulder. He said nothing as he held her there.
Two years since Coruscant. She could not even bring herself to think of his name; the emotions were still too raw.
Alderaan would not be all that would be mourned tonight.